finally eoy is so over!!! but frm my results looks like i can only blog for the next 3 days or so i guess, since my parents in malaysia(:

so the few weeks before exams hasnt been so gud, a lot of things were going on around me, and i felt so stressed. saw Esther ma'am on 27/9/07. and i suddenly felt that i wanna borrow her shoulder to cry on. cos i reali cannot take it anymore.

exam period...felt even worse..it's lyk HE dun like me to mix with HER, like WHAT THE FCUK!? im jus so disappointed HE cant even share HER with me...

then now...jus got back my results, sum of it...i felt terrible.i reali duno wad to do le. am i so STUPID, DUMB,CRAP? after one whole year, im still getting the same old results? then next year O levels how!? i have tried so hard, but everythings still ends the same old way: FAILURE.

then redcross...although it's the only place wer i can hide all my troubles and be in a land of bliss for 3 hours...now it's jus not the same...everybody's changing, and i dun feel the same. it's so different frm the sec 2 life in redcross...everything belonging to responsibility seems to fall on me first. everyone expects me of this and that, and the situations doesnt help. jus now, reali fed up le, summore the headache frm evacuation was like many hammers knocking so hard at the back of my head, making me giddy like hell till im so irritated, jus BLASTED at all of them. i reali hope they learn frm their mistakes(:


and now dying seems to be the only way out. i jus wan to run away frm it all. i dun even mind being handcuffed if i ever go jump. everything seems so wrong now. everyone depends on me, everyone gets so irritated with me when things go wrong, dun see the point of living since im not the perfect person u all tot i was. u guys will be happier if im out of ur lives anyway. im jus sumone which makes everything go wrong, so why shud i exist?

heys Alvin, cheerup okies(: dun so emo(:

finally eoy is so over!!! but frm my results looks like i can only blog for the next 3 days or so i guess, since my parents in malaysia(:

so the few weeks before exams hasnt been so gud, a lot of things were going on around me, and i felt so stressed. saw Esther ma'am on 27/9/07. and i suddenly felt that i wanna borrow her shoulder to cry on. cos i reali cannot take it anymore.

exam period...felt even worse..it's lyk HE dun like me to mix with HER, like WHAT THE FCUK!? im jus so disappointed HE cant even share HER with me...

then now...jus got back my results, sum of it...i felt terrible.i reali duno wad to do le. am i so STUPID, DUMB,CRAP? after one whole year, im still getting the same old results? then next year O levels how!? i have tried so hard, but everythings still ends the same old way: FAILURE.

then redcross...although it's the only place wer i can hide all my troubles and be in a land of bliss for 3 hours...now it's jus not the same...everybody's changing, and i dun feel the same. it's so different frm the sec 2 life in redcross...everything belonging to responsibility seems to fall on me first. everyone expects me of this and that, and the situations doesnt help. jus now, reali fed up le, summore the headache frm evacuation was like many hammers knocking so hard at the back of my head, making me giddy like hell till im so irritated, jus BLASTED at all of them. i reali hope they learn frm their mistakes(:


and now dying seems to be the only way out. i jus wan to run away frm it all. i dun even mind being handcuffed if i ever go jump. everything seems so wrong now. everyone depends on me, everyone gets so irritated with me when things go wrong, dun see the point of living since im not the perfect person u all tot i was. u guys will be happier if im out of ur lives anyway. im jus sumone which makes everything go wrong, so why shud i exist?

heys Alvin, cheerup okies(: dun so emo(: