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"Of the many contradictions that exist in the world, the contrast between love and hate is perhaps the starkest. It is one that helps us value true love while understanding the ramifications of hatred."
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"A life without love is like a sunless garden when the flowers are dead. The consciousness of loving and being loved brings a warmth and richness to life that nothing else can bring."
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Sunday, September 28

yes, i heard it was "very" fun at kenneth's house last nite. cos it was kenneth's birthday. and even mr tan went. but you guys dun really need to "surprise" me by asking wenbin to say "wb<3u" into the phone. i would have brought a knife to school tmr to kill owb had i not been reasonable enough to demand and threaten the truth out of him today :DDDDDD
and for the last time. I DO NOT LIKE ONGWENBIN. tis is like the zillion time i have been saying this already >.<
MR.girl hypocrite must have been happy i didnt go yesterday.

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Friday, September 26

graduation day is round the corner, definitely gonna miss everyone, especially 4E5'08, FHRCY...
today was real fun! decorated the graduation gifts, and took loads of photos(: will upload when i have time (which is most probably after 12/11/08)
quite a busy weekend with all the MATHS, GEOGRAPHY, ENGLISH, SCIENCES homework to complete, hopefully for once i can complete ALL.
making a trip to library for study day with sy and mardi tmr, work hard for your EOYs gurls!(:
ciaos!

ms.ycy talked to me on the way to the bus stop yesterday. it's sad that i couldnt tell her 100% of my feelings, since it would be better for her to just worry about ws, instead of having to worry for two, it might be too draining for her...

today J. told me something. i pity her alright, but i wonder how would i feel should that happen to shaoshou and ___.

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Friday, September 19

played badminton and volleyball today, and finding out how RUSTY my badminton skills were, ohno...

anyway, today ms yeo talked to us about MR. RL. well, what i felt was that although MR. RL is definitely a dedicated teacher, no doubt about that, however, i somehow dont really like his teaching style. maybe the rest of the class will not agree with me, but i feel that when he teaches the stuff, the information gets into my head, but when i do the exercises, the information is just not there. maybe it is just that im dumb compared to the rest, but i able to retain information better in other lessons...
and! the reverse psychology whatever crap, i don't believe in it at all. to me, whatever he intructs us to do, he meant good for us, so i should just follow.(:

loads of homework this weekend, argh!
1)emaths paper 2 corrections
2)admiratly sec em p1 and p2
3)admiratly sec am p1 and p2
4)physics paper
5)chemistry 2001
6)amaths p1 and p2 corrections(OPTIONAL)

JIAYOU JIAYOU JIAYOU!:D


my heart just bursted seeing the two of them together. just when i recovered from one in june, i have to suffer another one like this. oh pls, shao shou, why cant you see i like you so much ))))))):

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Thursday, September 18

i feel like this now, yes i do.

i want to die. i want to die. i want to die. i want to die. i want to die. i want to die. i want to die. i want to die. i want to die. i want to die. i want to die. i want to die.i want to die. i want to die. i want to die. i want to die. i want to die. i want to die. i want to die. i want to die. i want to die. i want to die. i want to die. i want to die. i want to die. i want to die. i want to die. i want to die...
today is doomsday. super uber disappointed with the current results i have, especially emaths and english. so much for working so hard when in the end, the results are still as horrible as ever.
im just not fated to believe in my studies; the small glimmer of hope in me will burst into thin air. i cannot trust the magic of believing; cos nothing, NOTHING, has ever come true for me.

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Wednesday, September 17

saw _ _ _'s blog. up till now, i never really wanted to believe it, but the evidences are all there for me to see. my heart has shattered. im just so upset. why does the truth hurts so much more now? DDDDD:

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did a fulfilling thing yesterday: clearing and rearranging my files and my brother's files! now onli left with tuition file and emaths, amaths files(but not bothered to do so, since i may not even refer to the maths files:D)

anyways, i will make sure i enjoy myself today, since tomorrow is the day of reckoning ><

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Tuesday, September 16

PRELIMS ARE OFFICIALLY O-V-E-R!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! celebrates! wees~
rest 2 days, then hard work again.
screwed up am p2, and that is o level standard! ah!!!!!!!!!!!!! nvm, i did my best for that paper le(:
and i duno why, missing rc like crazy! feel like going back, but i guess studies cum first(:

anyway, super pissed about what happened yesterday.
1) i took bus 198 to school, and by the time i reached the bus stop to get down, the bus was super crowded and it was raining hard. naturally i was trying hard to get out of the bus, only to be pushed aside by this bloody woman just because her small nephew cannot follow his mother. EH woman, if you are so worried that your nephew cannot get down the bus becos of the crowd, you should let him move towards the exit before the bus reaches the bus stop right? why do last minute things?!?!
2) and another thing. it was a real downpour, so by the time esther and i reached the front porch sharing my umbrella, we were super drenched. we tot can change into a dry uniform to take am p2 prelims, but yet we have to pay $2 for one set of uniform! RIDICULOUS! and esther still have to go find a suitable uniform! so we gave up the idea and sat for the am paper in cold conditions. nice service we are provided! so much for the value "school before self". i dun tink the school will care even if we are wet to the skin before an o level paper ><.

hmmmmmmmmm........which hoodie should i choose?
Mickey hoodie?This dry hoodie?

Rocker hoodie?

Star hoodie?

Or this cute hoodie?

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Friday, September 12

2 more prelim papers to go, yipee!
felt the papers this week were okay, especially am p1. hopefully i had "killed" am p1(:
this prelims is the very last school exam, cos the next exam will be the real one. the one that we started preparing for one year ago. the one that needs the longest preparation time. the one that affects our future. i must do well, i MUST.

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Saturday, September 6

a busy week. did not really enjoy myself): i really really really want to do well for prelims, then i wun feel sad(:
sorry super random now. forgive me.

anyway, class tee design! love it (although i wish got colours, but if i want a cheap tee, i have to make do:D)!