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"A life without love is like a sunless garden when the flowers are dead. The consciousness of loving and being loved brings a warmth and richness to life that nothing else can bring."
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Thursday, November 30

fdc training today...VERY INTERESTING pt we had...the result? so many casualties, including myself. wonder how cum i feel so easily giddy... den planned the rc outing...woots...we hiking from bukit timah hill to macritche(i dunno how to spell)reservoir.FUN!!!then training...I SO USELESS!!!i so fast feel faint again...grr...but i observed a lot when i was resting...so later i went to eat lunch with hl and ying shuen, then wan play captain's ball with connie, yi xuan, radhiah,zhi qian,xiao wen,jia qi,nada,hl,ying shuen and esther, but rained la, so we go play outside the hall...ESTHER MA'AM SOOOOOOOOOO FUNNY LOR!!!!!!the ball cum near her she scream...we train her catching-the-ball skills by playing monkey, but we all sabo her hehe ((((:
play captain's ball again...hmm, let's juz say she nearly burst my ear haha.
play ma tong...we all sabo esther, sooooooo funny lor! den 3.35pm we all go home lor...

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Tuesday, November 28

back from malaysia...tell me if it is interesting having two wedding dinners at the same venue on two consecutive nites? no i dun. same food, same everything...food also so sai...

currently having mood swings...muz be the after effects of rc camp...mayb coz i cried a bit while watching the farewell video fer the sec 4s...summore i feel super guilty after reading a few ma'ams' blogs like joanne ma'am and simin ma'am...the smile or not to smile game...okie i admit i was in a pretty bad mood...although i feel like laughing like hell everytime i see cindy getting splashed...maybe that's why i was showing attitude throughout the whole game, coz i was controlling my laughter...wadever it is...im SUPER DE DUPER SORRY fer being one of those ppl which spoiled the fun of the game...especially to JOANNE MA'AM...=(

anyway, the rc camp was great i admit...although i heard many complaints from the sec 1s (i wun say hu, they noe hu they are) about sec 3s mad arh, make them dun have enough sleep, then so tired arh, still have pt in the morning...den wan go home arh...PLS LA...I NOE THE CAMP IS TOUGH, BUT AT LEAST MUZ TAHAN MAH!!!THIS IS A TRAINING CAMP TO BUILD UP UR ENDURANCE LEVEL!!! PLS FAN XING YI XIA!

lookin after the flag was fun, although i heard that sum ppl APPARENTLY took photos of me protecting my flag on the first nite...omigod!

campfire was fun...although nort many ppl were enthu...quite sadded la...even the scouts hu were FORCED to be enthu(this is true hor!my scout fren told me!) also more enthu then us...

selection of fdc commander...i sux too much...cant even complete the maze...well at least zq sir bacame commander of fdc squad...CONGRATULATIONS ZHI QIAN SIR!!! =)

so i really learnt a lot from this camp...and really upsetted a lot of ma'ams along the way...SO TO EVERY SINGLE SEC 3 SENIORS WHOM I HAVE UPSETTED DURING THIS WHOLE CAMP, ESPECIALLY JOANNE MA'AM...IM EXTREMLY SORRY!!! =( *SNIFF

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Thursday, November 23

came back from rc camp...i dunno whether to say that the camp was a success...coz it has its good and bad points...all i have to say is...TO ALL SEC 3 SENIORS, U GUYS DID A GREAT JOB!!! THREE CHEERS AND THREE CHEERS AND THREE CHEERS FER SEC 3S, HIP HIP, HOORAY! HIP HIP, HOORAY! HIP HIP, HOORAY!!!!!

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Monday, November 20

TMR IS RED CROSS CAMP!!!
yay!!!!!
but im worried abt the cheers and the theme of camp...
i haven even decided the songs yet...
SOMEONE TELL ME IF ABBA IS CONSIDERED PART OF RETRO SONGS!!!!!

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Saturday, November 18

better hurry up b4 my bro cum back from buying lunch....

todae fdc training...was quite okay...but i was too nervous le when saying commands...also found out hu are the ppl in my class le fer next year...haiz nvm la...my bro cum back le..

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Friday, November 17

u wun be hearing from me much often le!!!
my bro todae last day of O 'lvls!!!
so that means he will hog the com
while i'll have to study!!
so long...

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Thursday, November 16

FDC TRAINING WILL RESUME THIS SATURDAY...

yesterday i found out from kr that our classes posting results are out le...sadded that beebee and ying en went to 3s1, although im happy that soggy nort in 3s5 like mi...the rest (16-3=13) of us hu chose course code r all in the same class,3s5.
why muz they change the classes names lor...lolx...this might be my last post or so, coz my bro almost finish o' lvls le...ARGH!!!!!!!!

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Wednesday, November 15

2 IMPORTANT ANNOUCEMENTS!!!!!

NO FDC TRAINING THIS SATURDAY!!! FDC TRAINING WILL BE CONDUCTED NEXT SATURDAY!!!

YOUR NEW I/C WILL BE YING SHUEN!!!!

POSTING CLASSES RESULTS OUT!!!!!
3S1=RST course code (i dun think this is correct leh...wenjie say this is 7 subject class...quite confused now)
3S2=ABC course code
3S3=GHI course code
3S4=TRIPLE SCIENCE
3S5=RST course code


*apperently alvin was FURIOUS that he same class as me...haha...more tmr

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Tuesday, November 14

rc training yesterdae...we did a bit of footdrill b4 evacuation...i went with jose and ying shuen...we wanted to get bandages first b4 finding casualties but joanne ma'am scolded us and told us to juz go find casualties.....=.= found xiang yi ma'am,and apperently she got upper leg injury...no offence, but she is really HEAVY!!!lucky mardy and her gang came so i ask sy to take over me la while i go with mardy and chermmin find other casualties. find until like siao...met up with sy and ying shuen den went to dnt block...found xiao wen ma'am...took damn long to find her injury, which is head bleeding. joanne ma'am keep saying wad evacuation is nort a game, still can laugh and play summore...but me and ying shuen are treating it seriously...dunno wad we do den she say like that...??????? so we did horribly bad fer dis evacuation...finishing in 57 minutes instead of 30 minutes. the seniors told us our mistakes...sum of the juniors got scoldings fer nuthing...den they let us try one more time....i still dunno why i cant carry xiang yi ma'am...later on take interview fer sec 4 seniors....then bersurai..then went to rc rm fer briefing of camp..den home sweet home..

todae went to sch to do ss project...i reached there damn freakingly early...jx was late again...lolx...den told him that his imitation of a gurl when we prank called alvin on sun worked coz he apparently tot the voice was my gurlfren's.HAHAX! den we do and do and do, later zi an and kr came...giving us some entertainment...then the scouts arrived, giving us more entertainment...2pm arrived fast and of course i go home la...

god...feelin damn FREAKED OUT...juz cant seem to command properly...everytime get stage fright summore forget my commands...wad am i going to do...

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Monday, November 13

so yeaterday went to valerie house, apparently im the earliest, the rest all late.did the project and prank called sum ppl,very funni...later i bet sure got evacuation...)):



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Sunday, November 12

seems that all my activities in the day always end so late until cannot on com...lucky today finally got time...hmmm.....

Friday, 10/11/06
went to sch to do nyaa...so sian...then went to je library to while away the time b4 meeting my ss project mates at 1pm...then went to lakeside station only saw bay...LOL!!! im the second one to reach...den valerie cum and sae jx will be late lor....we wait fer jr until 1.13pm....so me and val screamed at him of course. went to val's house then went down again to meet jx...but didnt noe it was drizzling outside....quickly ran to bus stop wait fer jx...three "30" buses flew by....within abt 1h...still no jx...my hands were ready to murder him liao...den suddenly thunderstorm, valerie use bay's umbrella to go home and close windows, left the 3 of us der...den jx call him sae he reach liao...juz dunno valerie wad block....grr...make us wait at bus stop fer wad den?!?!so we went back after val came back to bus stop with another umbrella...went to lift still se no jx...i was boiling by then...jx finally appear...i strangled him, den we went up....we changed to tuas from chinese garden lor...den we do our game...went out awhile to celebrate valerie's burfdae..jx played intermezzo on piano...continued project...den went home abt 6pm....meeting again todae...fun....

Saturday, 11/11/06
today FUHUA OPEN HOUSE...met up with red cross at 8.45am...when open house starts at 10am?!?! so freakingly early...left early to go help ms tham at english department...boogle so fun!!! i wan buy the game sia!!! i and zhi ying played snatch with mr govind...lolx mr govind snatch champion...he too good fer even the combined efforts of me and zhi ying...i missed out on drums performance coz 1 gurl wan play with me boogle....den i finish shift liao went down to red cross booth....me and huiling and zhi qian sir and xiao wen ma'am had fun fighting fer a pole...den i saw PEI CHUAN, went to talk to him, he ask me help him hold his drum stick, i help him hold, den ALVIN cum askin me fer drum stick...i nvr give him coz i tot it's pei chuan's one, den he SHOUTED at me den we QUARRELLED la...GRR!!!!! HE SHOULD HAVE TOLD ME THAT'S HIS DRUM STICK MAH...THE ARSEHOLE!!!!!HOW U EXPECT ME TO NOE THAT PEI CHUAN TOOK UR DRUM STICK?!?!?! SHUANG ARH...THINK U SO BIG ARH????!!!!!! kay fine i CONFESS...i still care abt wad he does and cant stop looking at him (more likely his muscles!!!)...wish i can realli 4get him and move on with life...wondering wad's holding me back...wondering why i still like him so much...why i juz cant treat him as a normal fren??? ):
okay...so later slack downstairs, took photos of zhi qian sir and huiling(XD) sitting together, ate lunch with ying shuen, took video of lion dance...enjoyed ourselves when we fast forward the whole lion dance video( coz the whole thing was like as if they had juz eaten estacy,dance so fast)then we went up eat chocolate cornflakes, then went down again, den up again slack upstairs...this time i managed to watch the drums performance. ((: went to get balloons later, the colours so nice!!! PURPLE and GREEN balloons!!!so finally 4pm den i go home lor...

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yesterday i so pro...almost spent 12 hrs on com...hehe...wondering if u guys could give me comments on this new song i have put in?hehe...sian arh tmr have to go fer SS meeting den sat have to go fuhua open house,and im only helping out fer 2 MEASLY HOURS!!!grr...

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Tuesday, November 7

todae red cross training...it's the selection of the footdrill competition ppl...shall nort say much on it...pretty happy that i made it to the contingent,although im afraid that i might get out...shall sae hu in contingent....
1.Cindy
2.Zhi Qian Sir
3.Ying Shuen
4.Si Min Ma'am
5.Huiling
6.Shi Yuan
7.Mardiana
8.Nada
9.Shu Jian Ma'am
10.Joanne Ma'am
11.Jia Qi Ma'am
12.Xiao Wen Ma'am
13.Radhiah Ma'am
14.Khairiyah Ma'am
15.Kaiting
16.Encarni Ma'am
17.Si Hui Ma'am
18.Suan Joo ma'am
19.Yu Chun Ma'am
20.Xiang Yi Ma'am
21.Obviously myself lar! *lame

so i was a total freak...i volunteered to be commander with shi yuan,mardy,ying shuen and zhi qian sir...so esther ma'am CHOSE ME TO BE COMMANDER FER NEXT SATURDAE FDC TRAINING!!!!! argh!!! gonna die next week!!!have to practise my commanding skills lor!!!oh man...better do well sia...

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Sunday, November 5

been really busy lately...haven really updated my blog....coz i busy in the dae then mum dun let me use com at nite...so now no one at home and i can use the com in peace....haha...thanks joanne ma'am fer tagging me!!!!

Friday, 3/11/06
okie so had rc training, tough one though...maybe i so long nvr do real footdrill training so easily tired liao...shit my endurance lvl go down liao worz...must toughen up b4 camp....speaking of camp....I CAN GO RED CROSS CAMP LE!!!!!YAY!!! date was really changed to 21st to 23rd....hehe but muz pay cash next training...back to story, so after that need to change fer pt, but becoz red cross rm was in the cleaning process so we have to do pt in boots...nort really fun running since we have to keep so quiet in order nort to disturb the sec 4s taking O' lvls in our boots.....played captain's ball later....my team rox man!!!luv ya cindy and mardy!! zq sir so freakingly good lor....so tall...keep knocking away the ball...waa i shorter than him....muz continue growing taller!!! later do push-ups and sit-ups and putting our legs in the air...sang a few songs and did a few cheers...lolz our singing so OUT-OF-TUNE...me and jose super malu....coz alvin and ch were in the canteen with a few other prefects discussing the games fer sec 1 orientation camp next year...hmm...that dae so weird, sum sec 1 juniors seemed to be in a bad mood...joanne ma'am too fierce liao worz....alvin sae she screamed so much it's surprising she didnt get sore throat and he didnt becum deaf...lolz...so bersurai we second time finished it within 1st try...whew....

so later when i reached home then my mum went jogging,then i was reading my book then came a sms from alvin:posting results had cum out and he apparently wasnt happy to be in the same course code as me...so i was damn shocked that results had cum out on fri instead of sat so i called him to confirm. then immediately switched on the com to check my results...okie so alvin, yulun,ws,p3,john,zhi qi,gao yan and SONG JIA HE(GRR!!!) were the 8 boiis in the same course code as me lorx....esther, bee chin, ying en, soo ching, sharlynn,kl and joselin were the 7 gurls in the same course code as me lorx...pretty happy even though i didnt go into my first choice course code...8 ppl chose triple science...waa...i will sure miss the 4 scouts next year,coz apparently they had all chosen triple science...ying shuen also in triple science(dotz =.=). 6 ppl in the seven subject course code,the one with phys,chem,comb history and A maths. pity bay sia....landed in 5th choice course code(the one which i have juz mentioned). so the "prime-minister" kb chose comb his with pure lit....the only one in my class...claps claps to kb...having mixed feelings sia...happy that most of us(except ppl like bay and alvin larz =.=) got into the course we wanted, but sad that our fates had been sealed-we are really gonna separate...sniff...good luck to everyone next year though....hope that u guys will do well in ur studies....especially the 4 scouts....carry on the tradition of being the funniest ppl i have ever known!


Saturday,4/11/06
today OA mass accredition, had to admit that the whole process was chicken-feet and all craps (according to yong seng sir).other than outdoor cooking,the theory test and trsting of knots were so damn easy lor...but still happy that me,ying shuen and joselin and kaiting all passed...hehehe...outdoor cooking was fun,though i was nervous...den denise ma'am keep cuming over at the wrong time....but proud that i succeeded in my first outdoor cooking by myself...ate my lunch of instant noodles and egg and sausage....so irritated...mess tin i washed 3 times then the sir finally sae can....but really tired lolx....went to tampines mall with the 3 gurls to take neoprints to celebrate....then jose went to church while me and shuen and kaiting walked around a bit then we went home lor....fun day....

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Thursday, November 2

todae went to sch to study OA....lolz zq sir so funny lor....sry arh todae post so short...