Why is it so much easier to talk to someone online whom you feel awkward talking to in reality?

Someone seem to have disappeared from my life silently. I wish he will give me a reason what is his intention to slip away just like that.

Some boys really suck to the max.

Really tired of everything.

Something which I saw from Eugene's and Subha's blogs. Decided to try it.

You are feeling exhausted, worn out, drained. You feel that far too much is being asked of you but you still want to overcome these difficulties and establish yourself despite the effect such an effort seems to have on you. You are a proud person, assertive most of the time, but at this particular moment you are acting as if you have become resigned to the situation. What you need is some tender loving care - a gentle pat on the head (or maybe a 'kick-up-the backside') and then you'll be raring to go.

Being a likeable person you get on well with neighbours and friends. You don't need anything to 'Rock your boat'. You want to 'love' and to be loved'.

In spite of all the opposition, you are insisting that your goals are realistic but circumstances are forcing you to compromise. You are not very happy with this situation but there is little that you can do about it. You have very strict standards which you try to apply to everyone who enters your sphere of influence.

You are on tenterhooks and appear to be extremely nervous and upset. You are bored and you feel that life has far more to offer than this present day mundane existence. The way that you feel indicates that you have the need for a responsive and understanding relationship. You are prepared to follow up any opportunity which may present itself. However you are very choosy and you refuse to be swept off your feet unless integrity can proved to be 100% genuine. Therefore you are holding back, keeping your emotions in check because before you let down your guard you have to be sure. You are too trusting and you have no desire to be hurt again. You are responsive to conditions around you - but forever under control.

You are afraid that you may not be able to realise or achieve your hopes and desires and so you insist that people should accept you as you are and appreciate your rights to anything that you aspire to.

I got to admit, it's quite true.

An open book test tomorrow, yet I still have to mug for it?


Fuck, I still need to finish up my Chem remedial ws.

This week's gonna suck like any other week in this bitchy jc2 life.

我关上了门 最后一次听你说我们


熟悉变陌生 把我往记忆里扔


我应该习惯你离去的眼神


才能让失去你变得更完整


窗外的街灯 还在努力掩饰著早晨


我的叹息成全了整夜的苦闷


我该努力习惯这样的气氛


才发现 失去了爱不用再等


我知道 我的一切你已不想


要 继续在乎只会让你想逃


我不相信这全是种煎熬


原来离去是那麼难预料


早已看穿没有我想要的好


我的等待换不到你拥抱


只好让回忆短暂的炫耀


原来任性对彼此都不好


清晨的街灯 唤开了城市中的心门


我的等待成全了整夜的苦闷


RUN AWAY 在你的回忆里


狂奔 才了解 失去了 爱不用再等


我知道 我的一切你已不想


要 继续在乎只会让你想逃


我不相信这全是种煎熬


原来爱你是那麼难预料


早已看穿没有我想要的好


我的等待换不到你拥抱


只好让回忆短暂的炫耀


原来任性对彼此都不好


多想再一次紧紧的拥


抱 就算给我一秒也好


一秒可以给多少 我都想要


我知道 我的一切你已不想


要 继续在乎只会让你想逃


我不相信这全是种煎熬


原来爱你是那麼难预料


早已看穿没有我想要的好


我的等待换不到你拥抱


只好让回忆短暂的炫耀


原来任性对彼此都不好


让回忆继续反覆炫耀


原来失去对彼此都不好

 
Falling tears; it just reminds me so much of you.

Sleeping at an unearthly hour of 4am is not good at all. I will never ever sleep at such late hours again.

Today was pretty much okay I guess. My Chemistry marks were terrible. I do not want to fail at As.

Time to buck up Jeslynn, Jiayou! :)

School again.
School sucks.
Homework undone.
So how?
Sad :(

Ka-Ching!

3rd day of freedom is ending already. It's time to start finishing up my homework. But there's so many good movies tomorrow, & house-visiting in the daytime & steamboat at night on day 5 of freedom! Haish. But homework needs to be handed up, and I cannot afford to fail the second upcoming economics test, Maths Vectors quiz and Geography test next week; I'm kinda sick of seeing single digits on my papers already.

SO. I managed to earn $50 today, & it's not from my hongbao; it's from winning a bet!
So, my cousin, who is married and has a young daughter (about 2 years old I think), made a bet with the few relatives present at my grandma's house, that whoever can carry her, gets $50! The only problem is that she's very shy, and doesn't allow anyone to carry her. Considering that at the family gathering last Sunday, no one could carry her, so I took up the challenge.
Sure, it was hard in the beginning, but after I fed her a small piece of Ba Kwa, she became a little more comfortable with me :D (Because she took 2 more pieces from me when I offered to her). However I still couldn't "get" her permission to carry her.
Then, she tottered to the living room to see the TV. It gave me an idea to carry her from behind, while she was distracted. & she didn't even squirm! AND THAT'S HOW I GOT MY 50 BUCKS! :D

Screwed all my H2 & H1 departmental tests.

Fatigue;

[edit] at 11 plus pm.

Bertram Brandon Ong Yong Zheng.

I don't really care now if your full name is here in such a big size.
But I'm really pissed.
Shouldn't you be taking more responsibility for what you have done & caused?
You dragged Heng Li into the picture, & you didn't tell her why you did it.
& here you are saying "haha" & "I owe you one", with no single drop of remorse, when you made use of her (or so Heng Li & I speculated).
Do you even understand the magnitude of your mistake & how much harm it has caused to the relationship between you & your dad, your friendship with Heng Li, & her relationship with her mum?
The word "Sorry" is not even enough now.
I don't want this to break our (& that includes Bryan) friendship, we been through so much in J1. But I really hope you will reflect, since you find me sticking up for Heng Li & me trying to help you as "IRRITATING" to you.

& that brings me to another point. Now I wonder what good does it do to me when I help people to the best of my ability, when all I get is the word "irritating". Like, I really want to help you to gain confidence, be happier, learn from your mistake etc. Yet you don't appreciate it. What's the point? The phrase "To each his own" is gaining much more relevance in this society.
[/edit]

Tuitioned today.
Wan Zheng, Seah wenyi, Jackie & me decided to go to KFc at Taman Jurong for study session.
I saw a Sheng Shiong truck, & sang the aadvertisement.
Wz heard it, & dared me to say it to the cashier when we go SS later.
Went to SS to shop and buy mandarin oranges for tuition teacher.
SWY videoed the whole thing, I carried out the dare, wz paid for my "3 for $1" oranges.

& I DID ALL THIS WHILE WEARING MY RCYC'09 INSTRUCTORS TEE.

AWESOMEZ RIGHT?

This is what RCYC'09DELTA does to you -.-

But thanks for making me smile & laugh so much today. I haven't seen a U-shaped lips in a while.

I LOVE MY TUITION MATES :D

Friends are the best thing that can ever happen.
Relationships can wait.

& always will be.

Dang.

Why is it so much easier to talk to someone online whom you feel awkward talking to in reality?

Someone seem to have disappeared from my life silently. I wish he will give me a reason what is his intention to slip away just like that.

Some boys really suck to the max.

Really tired of everything.

Something which I saw from Eugene's and Subha's blogs. Decided to try it.

You are feeling exhausted, worn out, drained. You feel that far too much is being asked of you but you still want to overcome these difficulties and establish yourself despite the effect such an effort seems to have on you. You are a proud person, assertive most of the time, but at this particular moment you are acting as if you have become resigned to the situation. What you need is some tender loving care - a gentle pat on the head (or maybe a 'kick-up-the backside') and then you'll be raring to go.

Being a likeable person you get on well with neighbours and friends. You don't need anything to 'Rock your boat'. You want to 'love' and to be loved'.

In spite of all the opposition, you are insisting that your goals are realistic but circumstances are forcing you to compromise. You are not very happy with this situation but there is little that you can do about it. You have very strict standards which you try to apply to everyone who enters your sphere of influence.

You are on tenterhooks and appear to be extremely nervous and upset. You are bored and you feel that life has far more to offer than this present day mundane existence. The way that you feel indicates that you have the need for a responsive and understanding relationship. You are prepared to follow up any opportunity which may present itself. However you are very choosy and you refuse to be swept off your feet unless integrity can proved to be 100% genuine. Therefore you are holding back, keeping your emotions in check because before you let down your guard you have to be sure. You are too trusting and you have no desire to be hurt again. You are responsive to conditions around you - but forever under control.

You are afraid that you may not be able to realise or achieve your hopes and desires and so you insist that people should accept you as you are and appreciate your rights to anything that you aspire to.

I got to admit, it's quite true.

An open book test tomorrow, yet I still have to mug for it?


Fuck, I still need to finish up my Chem remedial ws.

This week's gonna suck like any other week in this bitchy jc2 life.

我关上了门 最后一次听你说我们


熟悉变陌生 把我往记忆里扔


我应该习惯你离去的眼神


才能让失去你变得更完整


窗外的街灯 还在努力掩饰著早晨


我的叹息成全了整夜的苦闷


我该努力习惯这样的气氛


才发现 失去了爱不用再等


我知道 我的一切你已不想


要 继续在乎只会让你想逃


我不相信这全是种煎熬


原来离去是那麼难预料


早已看穿没有我想要的好


我的等待换不到你拥抱


只好让回忆短暂的炫耀


原来任性对彼此都不好


清晨的街灯 唤开了城市中的心门


我的等待成全了整夜的苦闷


RUN AWAY 在你的回忆里


狂奔 才了解 失去了 爱不用再等


我知道 我的一切你已不想


要 继续在乎只会让你想逃


我不相信这全是种煎熬


原来爱你是那麼难预料


早已看穿没有我想要的好


我的等待换不到你拥抱


只好让回忆短暂的炫耀


原来任性对彼此都不好


多想再一次紧紧的拥


抱 就算给我一秒也好


一秒可以给多少 我都想要


我知道 我的一切你已不想


要 继续在乎只会让你想逃


我不相信这全是种煎熬


原来爱你是那麼难预料


早已看穿没有我想要的好


我的等待换不到你拥抱


只好让回忆短暂的炫耀


原来任性对彼此都不好


让回忆继续反覆炫耀


原来失去对彼此都不好

 
Falling tears; it just reminds me so much of you.

Sleeping at an unearthly hour of 4am is not good at all. I will never ever sleep at such late hours again.

Today was pretty much okay I guess. My Chemistry marks were terrible. I do not want to fail at As.

Time to buck up Jeslynn, Jiayou! :)

School again.
School sucks.
Homework undone.
So how?
Sad :(

Ka-Ching!

3rd day of freedom is ending already. It's time to start finishing up my homework. But there's so many good movies tomorrow, & house-visiting in the daytime & steamboat at night on day 5 of freedom! Haish. But homework needs to be handed up, and I cannot afford to fail the second upcoming economics test, Maths Vectors quiz and Geography test next week; I'm kinda sick of seeing single digits on my papers already.

SO. I managed to earn $50 today, & it's not from my hongbao; it's from winning a bet!
So, my cousin, who is married and has a young daughter (about 2 years old I think), made a bet with the few relatives present at my grandma's house, that whoever can carry her, gets $50! The only problem is that she's very shy, and doesn't allow anyone to carry her. Considering that at the family gathering last Sunday, no one could carry her, so I took up the challenge.
Sure, it was hard in the beginning, but after I fed her a small piece of Ba Kwa, she became a little more comfortable with me :D (Because she took 2 more pieces from me when I offered to her). However I still couldn't "get" her permission to carry her.
Then, she tottered to the living room to see the TV. It gave me an idea to carry her from behind, while she was distracted. & she didn't even squirm! AND THAT'S HOW I GOT MY 50 BUCKS! :D

Screwed all my H2 & H1 departmental tests.

Fatigue;

[edit] at 11 plus pm.

Bertram Brandon Ong Yong Zheng.

I don't really care now if your full name is here in such a big size.
But I'm really pissed.
Shouldn't you be taking more responsibility for what you have done & caused?
You dragged Heng Li into the picture, & you didn't tell her why you did it.
& here you are saying "haha" & "I owe you one", with no single drop of remorse, when you made use of her (or so Heng Li & I speculated).
Do you even understand the magnitude of your mistake & how much harm it has caused to the relationship between you & your dad, your friendship with Heng Li, & her relationship with her mum?
The word "Sorry" is not even enough now.
I don't want this to break our (& that includes Bryan) friendship, we been through so much in J1. But I really hope you will reflect, since you find me sticking up for Heng Li & me trying to help you as "IRRITATING" to you.

& that brings me to another point. Now I wonder what good does it do to me when I help people to the best of my ability, when all I get is the word "irritating". Like, I really want to help you to gain confidence, be happier, learn from your mistake etc. Yet you don't appreciate it. What's the point? The phrase "To each his own" is gaining much more relevance in this society.
[/edit]

Tuitioned today.
Wan Zheng, Seah wenyi, Jackie & me decided to go to KFc at Taman Jurong for study session.
I saw a Sheng Shiong truck, & sang the aadvertisement.
Wz heard it, & dared me to say it to the cashier when we go SS later.
Went to SS to shop and buy mandarin oranges for tuition teacher.
SWY videoed the whole thing, I carried out the dare, wz paid for my "3 for $1" oranges.

& I DID ALL THIS WHILE WEARING MY RCYC'09 INSTRUCTORS TEE.

AWESOMEZ RIGHT?

This is what RCYC'09DELTA does to you -.-

But thanks for making me smile & laugh so much today. I haven't seen a U-shaped lips in a while.

I LOVE MY TUITION MATES :D

Friends are the best thing that can ever happen.
Relationships can wait.

& always will be.

Dang.