I want to consume a hundred Panadol pills. Not only will my current headache go away, my life can dissolve into nothingness. I'm sick of living this meaningless life. I've lost my grip on life.

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Whenever i see your face, i don't even smile now. i can't even laugh now. i can only look away. sometimes, i wonder whether it was right of you to tell me; i could be still in my illusioned world. now, i won't even get to know the <10% of your story if i don't get the words "promoted to JC2" on my promotional results slip on 12 nov. i don't care anymore; you, of all you, managed to wreck (a small) part of my life as well. seriously, i don't think i can face you at the next event. maybe mixing with the girls (subha, huiying, milissa, siokhui, manwei etc.) or the guys (jiaxian, george, jingkai, calvin, khairul) might help. hopefully these people are going for the next event too...
i will not cry. i must not cry.
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tomorrow is the start of the dreaded, 9 terrifying days of promos.
i only wish to do well.

-GP: do well for essay, try to pass comprehension. perhaps an E.
-Economics: PASS. i MUST. E grade.
-Geography: perhaps a C/D grade that i'm to aim for.
-Chemistry: 59 MARKS OR A B GRADE.
-Maths: maintain my standard. AIM FOR AN A GRADE.
-Chinese: C grade. nothing more :)

PLEASE. LET ME PASS EVERYTHING.

I DON'T WANT TO GET RETAINED.

thanks to I&R, i did not wake up at 5am, but woke up at 6.30am instead. and yet im still tired.
falling asleep one time too many in lectures and tutorials this week.

one more week.
i hope to make it through J1.
because i definitely dont want to get retained.

retainment will be my death sentence.

not sure about how much i will get for my maths test.
revision's pretty okay this week. for once im pretty satisfied.

Inter-House Games; im in captain's ball with shihan :DDD
majority of the girls are in volleyball. felicia will get a shock soon XD not gonna say why yet.

cant wait for pw to end, no?

im not prepared.
im just not prepared.
but i still have to face the harsh world out there, even though im running out of time and steam.

passed econs case study. FINALLY.
failed chemistry test T.T
slept only 3-4 hours last night. wont do it ever again, 'cos im so mentally tired today. next tme, i think i better sleep for 5 hours.
took 975 to BP interchange, switched to 180 and slept all the way to boonlay interchange :DDD
currently extremely recharged and ready to chiong TRANSCRIPT EWWWWW.
ciaos~

ham sandwiches.
instant cup noodles.
finger food.
malay spaghetti.
crackers.
sour sweets.
biscuits.
milo.
soya bean.

my food menu to thrive on until promos are over.

plus 2 hours of sleep each day.

mugging session at jw library today.
tomorrow and friday will be spent at school.
saturday at UniSIM.
sunday: at home.

not that anyone will want to find me for mugging session anyway.

my newly created mugging timetable:

at night: drink coffee
12 midnight to 3am: pretend to sleep.
3am till morning: MUG.
morning (1 hour): breakfast (ham sandwich)
after breakfast till lunch: MUG
noon (1 hour): lunch (ham sandwich)
after lunch till evening: MUG.
evening: dinner (proper meal)

and the procedure repeats.

i have no other choice. i HAVE TO PROMOTE. i MUST PROMOTE. somehow, i must GET THROUGH PROMOTION.

it's better to die trying, than jumping down from the area outside MPR4 after the release of promotion results.

i think i can scrap an E for today's test. :D
pretty fulfilling today. mugged economics and human geography.
tomorrow school again.
and im suddenly changing my mind about my activity on wednesday. i suddenly dont feel the urge to go back anymore. promos are hanging in my head.

yay economics notes for monday'S lecture are finally on the portal and printed!
econs case study test tmr. gonna prove to juliana wong that i studied HARD & ENOUGH.

1 day of holiday almost gone.
tried sorting out maths today during mugging session in the afternoon. not sure if i gotten summation sorted out properly. but it's better than nothing; at least i FINALLY have an inkling of what is summation of series ALL ABOUT.

2 more days till the so-called holidays.
time to catch up; there's only 20-plus days left to promos.

I want to consume a hundred Panadol pills. Not only will my current headache go away, my life can dissolve into nothingness. I'm sick of living this meaningless life. I've lost my grip on life.

[edit]
Whenever i see your face, i don't even smile now. i can't even laugh now. i can only look away. sometimes, i wonder whether it was right of you to tell me; i could be still in my illusioned world. now, i won't even get to know the <10% of your story if i don't get the words "promoted to JC2" on my promotional results slip on 12 nov. i don't care anymore; you, of all you, managed to wreck (a small) part of my life as well. seriously, i don't think i can face you at the next event. maybe mixing with the girls (subha, huiying, milissa, siokhui, manwei etc.) or the guys (jiaxian, george, jingkai, calvin, khairul) might help. hopefully these people are going for the next event too...
i will not cry. i must not cry.
[/edit]

tomorrow is the start of the dreaded, 9 terrifying days of promos.
i only wish to do well.

-GP: do well for essay, try to pass comprehension. perhaps an E.
-Economics: PASS. i MUST. E grade.
-Geography: perhaps a C/D grade that i'm to aim for.
-Chemistry: 59 MARKS OR A B GRADE.
-Maths: maintain my standard. AIM FOR AN A GRADE.
-Chinese: C grade. nothing more :)

PLEASE. LET ME PASS EVERYTHING.

I DON'T WANT TO GET RETAINED.

thanks to I&R, i did not wake up at 5am, but woke up at 6.30am instead. and yet im still tired.
falling asleep one time too many in lectures and tutorials this week.

one more week.
i hope to make it through J1.
because i definitely dont want to get retained.

retainment will be my death sentence.

not sure about how much i will get for my maths test.
revision's pretty okay this week. for once im pretty satisfied.

Inter-House Games; im in captain's ball with shihan :DDD
majority of the girls are in volleyball. felicia will get a shock soon XD not gonna say why yet.

cant wait for pw to end, no?

im not prepared.
im just not prepared.
but i still have to face the harsh world out there, even though im running out of time and steam.

passed econs case study. FINALLY.
failed chemistry test T.T
slept only 3-4 hours last night. wont do it ever again, 'cos im so mentally tired today. next tme, i think i better sleep for 5 hours.
took 975 to BP interchange, switched to 180 and slept all the way to boonlay interchange :DDD
currently extremely recharged and ready to chiong TRANSCRIPT EWWWWW.
ciaos~

ham sandwiches.
instant cup noodles.
finger food.
malay spaghetti.
crackers.
sour sweets.
biscuits.
milo.
soya bean.

my food menu to thrive on until promos are over.

plus 2 hours of sleep each day.

mugging session at jw library today.
tomorrow and friday will be spent at school.
saturday at UniSIM.
sunday: at home.

not that anyone will want to find me for mugging session anyway.

my newly created mugging timetable:

at night: drink coffee
12 midnight to 3am: pretend to sleep.
3am till morning: MUG.
morning (1 hour): breakfast (ham sandwich)
after breakfast till lunch: MUG
noon (1 hour): lunch (ham sandwich)
after lunch till evening: MUG.
evening: dinner (proper meal)

and the procedure repeats.

i have no other choice. i HAVE TO PROMOTE. i MUST PROMOTE. somehow, i must GET THROUGH PROMOTION.

it's better to die trying, than jumping down from the area outside MPR4 after the release of promotion results.

i think i can scrap an E for today's test. :D
pretty fulfilling today. mugged economics and human geography.
tomorrow school again.
and im suddenly changing my mind about my activity on wednesday. i suddenly dont feel the urge to go back anymore. promos are hanging in my head.

yay economics notes for monday'S lecture are finally on the portal and printed!
econs case study test tmr. gonna prove to juliana wong that i studied HARD & ENOUGH.

1 day of holiday almost gone.
tried sorting out maths today during mugging session in the afternoon. not sure if i gotten summation sorted out properly. but it's better than nothing; at least i FINALLY have an inkling of what is summation of series ALL ABOUT.

2 more days till the so-called holidays.
time to catch up; there's only 20-plus days left to promos.