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"Of the many contradictions that exist in the world, the contrast between love and hate is perhaps the starkest. It is one that helps us value true love while understanding the ramifications of hatred."
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"A life without love is like a sunless garden when the flowers are dead. The consciousness of loving and being loved brings a warmth and richness to life that nothing else can bring."
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Tuesday, March 31

stupid stupid sun today. ran 2.4km with a most horrendous timing ): i need to improve! and and and, today was FOOD JUNK day. OMG i ate 2 HOTDOGS WITH CHILLI SAUCE, MAYO AND MUSTARD AS TOPPINGS, AND CORN CHIPS WITH CHEESE. fattening luh~

are they more capable than us? you should give equal chances to see who can do the job better, not based on what background they are from.

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TO HELL WITH PI! ITS DONE. FINISHED. time to sleep.
and its only the first draft ):

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Monday, March 30

imagine getting to talk to Radhiah Ma'am everyday on the train! HAHAHAHAHA!
PI PI PI! thanks Shannon (is it spelt like that?)!

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Sunday, March 29

talking to esther ma'am is ridiculously fun! HAHA was laughing like an idiot to myself the whole time i was msn-ing her last night. didnt know she is such an amusing person, and no wonder zhiqian always "bully" her.

hmm, jeffrey sir. is he the one from 10/09? HAHAHAHAHA.

you make me dread doing to school ever single week. 1 year 9 months left.

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Saturday, March 28

11.30pm every night, 6am every morning. just to make sure that i reach the parade square by 7.20am every single morning. but i must do redcross proud, i must maintain the strict standard (:

hearing certain songs recently reminded me of the once strong friendship we had. it has been ages since i mentioned you here, but since you never come here anymore (i think), it should be safe to reminince here about the days when we could just sit together and exchange many words. those times when we were there for each other through ups and downs, when you introduced to me to the world of chinese songs, when i can sms u non-stop...those days are long gone. in sec 3, my emotions overode my mind and heart, and that's when our friendship broke down. you hated me, and i hated you just as much. i avoided you at all costs. in sec 4, my hatred of you wasnt so much, but there's still a tinge of both hatred and hurt there. we hadnt talked to each other for practically 2 whole years already. much as i dont think of you nowadays (although choonseng just mentioned you recently), i really wonder how you are doing now. i had long forgiven you for you-know-what, but have you? you probably would have forgotten me by now. you probably still wont talk to me on your own accord if i had gone for 4e5 outing during the march holidays. the ties between us are severed, but isnt there any chance to tie a knot to fix those frayed ties? i smsed you on you-know-when, knowing 99.9% that you wont even reply. i saved that 0.1%; a faint hope that you will just reply for the sake of replying. im so disappointed you havent. i wont do it ever again, i assure you that, since you dont even appreciate a person's well wishes. alvin chew wen ping, you are now nothing to me but a fading memory. im sorry.

i love saturdays. for i will know that there's people out there who never despise me, who never thinks im just a fool, who never thinks im an idiot, who never scream at me for no apparent reason, who never cast me aside like furniture. nanhua girls, yvette, jiaman, jackie, seowwenyi & seahwenyi, xu jian, J2s & last but not least, mrs lim, thank you!(:

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Thursday, March 26

it's really nice talking to zhiqian on a school night, i dont know why :P
and YAY, thanks to ms yeo's maths teachings, i actually spotted loads of careless mistakes during my maths test today! so i tink i aced maths for once! yipee!

you are really making things difficult for me.

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Wednesday, March 25

"once a uniformed group member, always a uniformed group member."

all right, i got it wrong.
it is 4 IDEAS, 1 PI.
im such an idiot.

ANYWAY....there was a meeting for former uniformed groups members today. i volunteered for flag raising and/or commanding. so there's practice next monday, tuesday and wednesday before starting officially next thursday. i cant wait! and there's a chance i might be doing march-in (meaning flag bearer) on PJC's national day celebrations too! haish but there are so many NCC/NPCC girls and boys la! and Girls/Boys Brigade ): like no redcross people join la. saddenning, especially when i know ONE of them (from 09s02) who said he didnt want to volunteer. grr.

AMAZING RACE with JiaYing, Kiat Hwee, Chester & Zhen Zi. hmm.

im so addicted to folding stars. my new hobby!

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Tuesday, March 24

EXCUSE ME!?!?

4 PIs IN TOTAL; 2 PIs FOR CONSERVATION & EMERGENCY EACH!?!? DUE IN ONE WEEK 12 NOON?!?!

INSANITY.

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Monday, March 23

1) Emergency
2) Conservation
how do i write the PI in 2 weeks?!?!

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Sunday, March 22

you seem to be able to find ways to make me demoralised. but i wont let you get me down. i'll show you im not what you see in me.
good riddance.

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Saturday, March 21

Molla=Don't know!
just in case you dont understand the meaning of this word that im falling head over heels with.
will edit this post when im taking a break later.

[edit]
OMG I FINISHED GEOGRAPHY RESEARCH!!! WHOOPEE!
well this so-called holiday is coming to an end, and for once i felt that i have really revised my work. the only sad thing is that i havent got much free time to even go out with 4e5 yesterday and 10/09 for Arts Fest today ):
term 2 onwards is going to be really HARSH. with a drama production for the JC2s' entertainment during assembly in week 7, plus the announcement of the questions of PW on monday, 9am-10am...i dont know if i can cope. but since i managed to survive term 1, how bad can term 2 be?
last day & night to have the computer on fo recreational reasons. ciaos~ [/edit]

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Friday, March 20

i didnt know he was such an upright person to box his friend who screamed vulgarities into his hp to his parents.
esther ma'am, that "he" is your cousin leh! if you ever see this post, be proud of him kay! just dont tell him about this cos im not supposed to know abt it!! XD
hmm. should i buy GOOD QUALITY HOR FUN next week for HER? problem is either way i WILL GET THRASHINGS FROM HER LA.

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Thursday, March 19

heck with HSK.
3 more days. still a mountain pile of homework.
but it is shrinking somehow.
doomsday.

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Wednesday, March 18

lost.
gone.
i wish i could just become a dumb person after yesterday's hard bump with the car entrance on the back of my head.
the world's closing on me. even msn messenger is not working.
where do i turn to?
why are the bloody penknifes so blunt!?!?

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Tuesday, March 17

D;
dont want to talk about it.
what the F**K happened to my MSN MESSENGER?!?!

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Monday, March 16

overwhelming. overloaded. overworked.

i dont want to live anymore. i dont mind dying to escape doing the "Mount Everest" amount of homework.

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Saturday, March 14

what's the point of holidays when it equates to study break? MOE should just replace "holidays" with "study breaks". i will prefer that. at least it is the reality.

tuesday tuesday tuesday. go back to fuhua or not?
friday/saturday; 4e5 outing or not?
BOOKED ON WEDNESDAY & THURSDAY
free on Monday & Sunday
tentative on Tuesday, Friday, Saturday.

SEE HOW DAMN BLOODY BOOKED I AM??? what kind of holiday is this!?!?

H1 GEOGRAPHY RESEARCH NOW. good riddance.

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Friday, March 13

My Cake!
My prezzies(:

:DDDDDDDD

GUMMY DINOSAUR!

last day of term one before the start of study break (NOT March Holidays)!
then i went to...

FUHUA SECONDARY SCHOOL!!!
after like being MIA from fuhua for 2 months, i FINALLY went back!!! OMG the feeling of nostagia was so strong! i miss fuhua like crazy! then went to find zhi qian and ying shuen! debbie and kai ting was there too! then me, ys and zq joined FHRCY "finals" for captain's ball. not surprising, zq's team won (like excuse me, how can me and ys beat him la!) then later went to collect graduation cert cum testimonial, and i saw XIAOQIAN!!! and some 4e1 girls n 4e4 guys(: collected it, then saw ESTHER MA'AM!!! OMG I DUNNO WHY I SO HAPPY TO SEE HER LOL. talked loads with her, plus my comm girls :DDD training ended then we crapped sommore b4 leaving for home. AND I SAW HUAI JIAO, XIAOHUI AND YVONNE b4 leaving fuhua!!! YES YES YES H1 GEOG IS NOT EASY LA!!!
OMG today was such a nice afternoon la! FUHUA, FHRCY & 4E5 are such lovely ones to know about! what a memorable afternoon! (:
nothing changed. it somehow spoiled my morning, but who cares.

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Thursday, March 12




"the benefit of the doubt."
17, 17, 17. OMG THE NUMBER SOUNDS SO OLDDDDDD :O
HUGE LOVES to 09S12 for this nice surprise of yours!
and more thankyous to: VANESSA (for that 20 mins b4 12 midnight sms), EUGENE (for that 0017h sms), KHEE RUI SIR (for that 0313h sms), ESTHER, SAIYIDAH, WEN BIN & CHOONSENG (4E5 2008!!!), KRISTIE (FHRCY), FADHILAH (ALPHA!), JIEXIANG (BIRTHDAY BOY!!!), SEAH WENYI, DAPHNE, BRYAN, HENG LI (PJCians!), & last but not least: ALL 8 FACEBOOK WISHES FROM: SEETOH, ESTHER MA'AM (!!!), PERLIN, POKAI, LOIS, HWEE CHIN, WEI QI & PEI CHUAN!!!

what a memorable day(: thanks to all for making this possible! 09s12, you are loves!

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Wednesday, March 11

econs was okay today! (:
hmm, i do hope to get into casting! if not im the only person doing crew and lighting -.-
tomorrow tomorrow tomorrow! then then then friday and saturday!
HOLIDAYS are so SCREWED. with drama and chem remedials etc.
WAIT. WHAT ABOUT 4E5 OUTING?!?! T.T shoot i gotta make time for that la! ><

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Tuesday, March 10

as hard as i try, i keep stumbling while getting up from where i had fallen.

i miss you brother! D:
school's pretty screwed so far ): gotta work harder on chem.
and cs, i DO NOT miss wenbin. LOL.
10/09 & 4e5 & FHRCY, see you guys soon!

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Sunday, March 8

broken promises ):

i ought to be very happy for this upcoming week, but...
i want to spend this week with 4e5 & FHRCY, seeing that my March Holidays are screwed and burnt ):

i dedicate this song to 4e5, whoever comes here (cs, i know you do visit my blog, thks yeah XD)


SJX & Yentre, this song is for you two(:

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Friday, March 6

you know, i would appreciate if you will not rebute my opinions so RUDELY the next time. i dont see you "screaming" at any other people about their different opinions from you. i dont care if you know im talking about you. the fact that im talking about you so openly here shows how pissed i am with you.

screwed chem! ): im not going to screw econs next week! JIAYOU.
last week of term one next week! and there's already 2 tests coming up in term 2 week 1 ):
contemplating whether to have a wordpress or livejournal account. hmm.

;3rd week of roller-coasting emotions

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Wednesday, March 4

my fresh start is making slow progress. maybe i should place more importance on it.

Chemistry on Friday, Economics on next Wednesday. OMG.

Friday is the release of A level results. JIAYOU YING QI MA'AM & YI XUAN MA'AM!

drama on friday, even with a rare, early release of 12.30pm. ohwell, there's no juniors to visit on friday anyway, since their CTs are finishing (or finished, i dont know XD).

last week of term one is approaching, HOWEVER~ "NO break for you." says the "QUEEN" of the household. ): my holiday plans have gone up in smoke.

4E5! FHRCY! ALPHA! BRAVO! CHARLIE! DELTA! FDC '07! ULP '07! NCOs '07!

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Tuesday, March 3

after today, i guess nothing matters anymore. i'll just be myself. why should i be agitated over such minor things? a fresh start tomorrow.

and you know what? 4e5 guys (and that includes ACWP & YL & WS) are so so so so much better than the guys i know right now. i cant believe that i can actually miss them.

IM YEARNING FOR 4E5/FHRCY/ALPHA OUTING NOW!!!

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Monday, March 2

haha. S.C is so NOT related to student council! LOL.
plain black-and-white blogskin. XD
ciaos~

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Sunday, March 1

as time goes by, i feel that everything is passing by me in a blur. for the chances to grab hold each and everything is getting slimmer by the second.
having second thoughts about __. but isnt it too late to even think about it? why dont i just get on with it? i chose this path myself. no one forced me to choose it. so why am i having this tinge of regret again?
and this 2 words: S_____ C_________, is nagging at my conscience ever since i saw her on friday. im not the only one with S.C, so why cant i be C. like her? or like the 48 of them? i should have no excuse, 'cos im not the only person with this problem. but do i have a choice? its hurts pretty badly whenever i think of myself as a ________ __.
school again tomorrow. will it be nothing but another week of roller-coasting emotions?