undisclosed

"Of the many contradictions that exist in the world, the contrast between love and hate is perhaps the starkest. It is one that helps us value true love while understanding the ramifications of hatred."
desires

"A life without love is like a sunless garden when the flowers are dead. The consciousness of loving and being loved brings a warmth and richness to life that nothing else can bring."
.
Wednesday, April 9

to those 3 people frm E2, E3 and E4 whom i having been confiding to lately, u know who u are, THANKS for being there for me!!!

perhaps i shall share a story which ms yeo told us yesterday...i went to find the story and i found the exact story(((:

...===
Beware of Garbage Trucks
by David J. Pollay

How often do you let other people's nonsense change your mood? Do you let a bad driver, rude waiter, curt boss, or an insensitive employee ruin your day? Unless you're the Terminator, for an instant you're probably set back on your heels. However, the mark of a successful person is how quickly she can get back her focus on what's important.


Sixteen years ago I learned this lesson. I learned it in the back of a New York City taxi cab.

Here's what happened:
I hopped in a taxi, and we took off for Grand Central Station. We were driving in the right lane when, all of a sudden, a black car jumped out of a parking space right in front of us. My taxi driver slammed on his breaks, skidded, and missed the other car's back end by just inches!


The driver of the other car, the guy who almost caused a big accident, whipped his head around and he started yelling bad words at us.


My taxi driver just smiled and waved at the guy. And I mean, he was friendly. So, I said, "Why did you just do that? This guy almost ruined your car and sent us to the hospital!" And this is when my taxi driver told me what I now call, "The Law of the Garbage Truck."

Many people are like garbage trucks. They run around full of garbage, full of frustration, full of anger, and full of disappointment. As their garbage piles up, they need a place to dump it. And if you let them, they'll dump it on you. When someone wants to dump on you, don't take it personally. You just smile, wave, wish them well, and move on. You'll be happy you did.

So this was it: The "Law of the Garbage Truck."

I started thinking, how often do I let Garbage Trucks run right over me? And how often do I take their garbage and spread it to other people at work, at home, on the streets? It was that day I said, "I'm not going to do it anymore." I began to see garbage trucks.

Like in the movie "The Sixth Sense," the little boy said, "I see Dead People."

Well, now "I see Garbage Trucks." I see the load they're carrying. I see them coming to drop it off. And like my Taxi Driver, I don't make it a personal thing; I just smile, wave, wish them well, and I move on.

One of my favorite football players of all time, Walter Payton, did this every day on the football field. He would jump up as quickly as he hit the ground after being tackled. He never dwelled on a hit. Payton was ready to make the next play his best.

Good leaders know they have to be ready for their next meeting.

Good parents know that they have to welcome their children home from school with hugs and kisses.

Leaders and parents know that they have to be fully present, and at their best for the people they care about.

The bottom line is that successful people do not let Garbage Trucks take over their day.

What about you? What would happen in your life, starting today, if you let more garbage trucks pass you by? Here's my bet. You'll be happier.

Life's too short to wake up in the morning with regrets, so.. Love the people who treat you right. Forget about the ones who don't. Believe that everything happens for a reason. If you get a chance, TAKE IT! If it changes your life, LET IT!

Nobody said it would be easy...They just promised it would be worth it! ===...


to sidetrack a little, i just want to say that everything about REDCROSS, whether it is FHRCY, SIMPLICITY in NCO'07 or CHARLIE 2 in ULP'07, fills up quite a huge part of my teenage years. those are the things which made me become so enthu and go real mad . those are the things which really made me enjoy true friendship. those are the things which keeps me sane, especially in 2007. those are the things which keeps me going during the times when im down. those are the things which make me change my mind a few times about ending my life. those are the things which made me enjoy life temporarily. those are the things that made me forget all my troubles for a short while. there's still more as how REDCROSS has affected my life, and that's why i dun want to let go. i understand why i must let go. i am not that stupid. but do they understand that how much memories, friends and lifelong lessons i have gotten in my 4 years in REDCROSS? probably not. sooner or later i have to let go, and i will do it willingly. but to let go when it's not the time yet? im sorry to the 4 adults in school hu tell me i can start letting go, but I CAN'T. DDDDDD:


yes, im the one who made that nice yellow "4e5 you are loves" friendship poster. i thought it was not a good idea, that's why i didnt admit that i made it. i did it to wish everyone in 4e5 happy international friendship day.

.
Saturday, April 5

i though i have forgotten you, but it looks like i havent. you know how upset i was when you were so angry at me yesterday for being god-damn gossipy? like i tried to say sorry le, but i didnt know you will treat it so seriously. you are really not the person i used to know. am i just an invisible person in your life? someone whom you rather not talk to yet sit with me during chinese lesson? what about the resolution you promised to keep? apparently it's not going in that direction. i really duno wad to do...you are confusing me. i will not blame myself anymore for your changes in your behaviour, cos i have never seen anyone so STUPID, DUMB, IMMATURE.

when my life and soul disappears, that is when i can experience true happiness...in heaven. why should i care for the people around me when they dont even give me a shit? out of so many, onli ONE person has really made me feel that im apprieciated in his eyes. since they dun care, i dun tink they will care either if i just disappear quietly from the universe...cos im just an invisible person in everyone's view..

.
Thursday, April 3

Post cultural nite feeling: Having sadistic dreams of a boy with a bleeding head at the sch's spiral staircase.
im like FREAKED OUT cans? i duno why i have this feeling. probably of the joke that kt made to alvin at cultural nite mde this dream appear DDDDD:

currently feeling disorientated. i just duno why, but the feeling of much laziness is overcoming me...i just dun feel motivated to do my work anymore...im just sleeping earlier and earlier each day...not feeling confident anymore...just feel like jumping cans? life is like so no meaning...