Fear turning into tears of joy..
Saturday, March 6
I don't deny...
I was trembling like crazy inside.
I was freaking out like mad about everyone and my chinese results.
I was super super super worried for my Chinese class, especially Heng Li, Bertram and Bryan.
So when Mr Suresh said the whole 09s12 passed Chinese, I was really pleased, because I knew I had secured at least an E.
But when I got my results slip from him...
I SCREAMED, JUMPED, CRIED A RIVER, & PUNCH THE TABLE.
I SWEAR, I NEVER EXPECTED MY CHINESE RESULTS TO BE SO GOOD, BECAUSE I KNEW I WROTE OUT OF POINT FOR MY COMPOSITION.
I think the class thinks I'm mad, but WHO CARES! Getting a freaking hell excellent
C to me is so much more than I expected.
MY "SUDDEN DESIRE TO WORK HARD FOR CHINESE" ATTITUDE AT THE START OF 2009 HAS PAID OFF. I HAVE HIT MY TARGET.
& now I'm trying to persuade my mum to let me frame it; to motivate myself to do the same for As.
Speaking of the A levels,
I'm scared. The results in school are not as good this year. & I'm freaking out. I don't want to cry with sorrow next year. I want to replay the same scene when I got my chinese results when I get my A level results next year.
& what she said today, made me even more stressed than before. I teared, not because of what she said about me (which is quite true, so it's alright), it was what she said that made me think about my class, & how they are really starting to mug.
Seriously, no more playing the fool. I'm really going to stick to my plan of turning on the computer ONLY during the weekends.
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