Acid Lodge.

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"Of the many contradictions that exist in the world, the contrast between love and hate is perhaps the starkest. It is one that helps us value true love while understanding the ramifications of hatred."

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"A life without love is like a sunless garden when the flowers are dead. The consciousness of loving and being loved brings a warmth and richness to life that nothing else can bring."

Sunday, November 18

well, i admit im becoming more hurt as the hours go by, becos of those few sentences. my hatred is building up slowly. my determination level has dropped, thanks to you. but im NOT GONNA CARE. im gonna hang on, be the lone domino(equals to committee) standing.

go to http://www.freerice.com/, very cool website! good for pple like alvin who wants to show off his vocab level to miie >.<

*forgiveness is so hard to obtain, once you do anything wrong. so wad i did was wrong? wad i did is all my fault? so i cant be given another chance? i want to change but u i cant change? if i dun change, wad will i get? SCOLDINGS. do you understand wad im going through? do you understand my intentions? do you understand how much damage im trying to block all of you from that bloody blog? im sorry that i have to disappoint everyone and go through all this again. im really sorry. but i dont have a choice. i dont wan to give in anymore. i dont wan to succumb to pressure. but do i have a choice not to do so? NO. so what do you all expect miie to do? one moment, COMMAND AND CONTROL. next moment, i get accused and im not given a chance to explain. is it fair to miie? i dun want to give up, but the circumstances are forcing me to. i want to stay strong,but you are not giving me any base to put my feet on and do so. i dun scold, i get more and worse scoldings. i scold, i get all the bu shuang looks. im sandwiched in between. i have no more roads to turn to; i can only walk on a road which leads to the edge of the cliff.