undisclosed

"Of the many contradictions that exist in the world, the contrast between love and hate is perhaps the starkest. It is one that helps us value true love while understanding the ramifications of hatred."
desires

"A life without love is like a sunless garden when the flowers are dead. The consciousness of loving and being loved brings a warmth and richness to life that nothing else can bring."
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Sunday, October 14

just came back frm meeting, wasnt a very progressive one though. doesnt help that i tried not to be stressed frm last nite. i tried not to be emo in front of my committee.and after one whole day, we only done ONE day??? i really have no strength to carry on. im just so tired.

and his words just made me felt even worse than before.why shud i be so optimistic for him when he is so pessimistic? what about me? i have to gulp down my heartache and my broken heart to pull him out frm his misery. like as if i dun have any sufferings like that.

they kept mentioning his name today. and my heart bled even more.i tried not to think about him.didnt work.no matter how much i try, i just cant let go. I HATE MYSELF, SERIOUSLY.