today again got meeting...luckily finished almost all the days le, although we still have much to do):
kaiting's two frens came and then one of the frens' bf came. my heart's wound just opened bigger, even when there is so little blood in my heart right now. they were so mushy, i just went quiet and emo...
after kaiting went off and then ys came and then we finished the programme tables, went off to jp...had fun wearing rings and all that...but i wasnt realy in a gud state of mind though...

i really want to listen to all the advice eugene, joanne ma'am, shi yuan, huiling and choon seng have been giving me, and im trying to put my heart and soul to it, but it's just SO HARD. why cant i seemed to do it? the impact on me is so much greater than before, and i dun like it. is it true that i really cant recover frm this mess? and tmr's there is sch, how am i going to face him??

BLOODY ACWP. BLOODY HELL HIM. GO TO HELL WITH HIM. G*D D**N IT HIM!! SHUCKS.

today again got meeting...luckily finished almost all the days le, although we still have much to do):
kaiting's two frens came and then one of the frens' bf came. my heart's wound just opened bigger, even when there is so little blood in my heart right now. they were so mushy, i just went quiet and emo...
after kaiting went off and then ys came and then we finished the programme tables, went off to jp...had fun wearing rings and all that...but i wasnt realy in a gud state of mind though...

i really want to listen to all the advice eugene, joanne ma'am, shi yuan, huiling and choon seng have been giving me, and im trying to put my heart and soul to it, but it's just SO HARD. why cant i seemed to do it? the impact on me is so much greater than before, and i dun like it. is it true that i really cant recover frm this mess? and tmr's there is sch, how am i going to face him??

BLOODY ACWP. BLOODY HELL HIM. GO TO HELL WITH HIM. G*D D**N IT HIM!! SHUCKS.